Sunday, January 31, 2010

January Books

I am currently in a little friendly competition with Stephanie over who can read the most books (in pages) over the course of the year. I noticed she's keeping track on here and I shall as well at the end of each month so we can compare as to how we are doing.

This month I read--

Splendor by Anna Godbersen
391 pages

The Vampire Diaries:
The Awakening/The Struggle
492 pages

The Vampire Diaries
The Fury/Dark Reunion
520 pages

Ayn Rand
90 pages

For a grand total this month (not including the countless textbook chapters and short stories for classes which should count since it's a lot and take up most of my time): 1493 pages

Gooooooo ME!

Sunday, January 24, 2010


Someone else understands.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

The Distance From A To Where You'd B

I've sort of torn myself away from the world of my Redding friends. I pretty much haven't talked to anyone in forever. The past three nights though I've talked to a different person- Steph, Ashtyn, and Andrew. It felt good to hear all of their voices. I've been texting Steph a lot too and it makes me really happy. I miss her a lot, a lot.

It's so funny, thinking how she used to be "the other girl," the one who was dating the boy I liked, the one who intimidated me so. And now I can honestly call her my best friend. Lately, when I text her, I feel really clingy. I am always worried about the status of the relationship. Not really in a bad sense, but I think about other relationships and get scared. I don't really want to lose her. I think about how her and Alyssa aren't talking anymore, how they've been fighting, how they've lost touch since Alyssa moved away- I live 9 hours farther from Steph than Alyssa and I know what losing touch is like as I barely talk to Kelsey anymore and she was an ultimate best friend for such a long time.

Also, Steph is going to move here. I'm so excited about that. Like, to have her here is the most exciting thing to me. I pray to God that she gets accepted to SDSU (and that she likes it so she'll stay), so she can be closer to me. And I was thinking about it and how excited I am, and normally the things in my life that I'm really excited about are the things that never happen. And I got worried last night that even though she's so close, we'd get wrapped up in our own worlds and never see each other. I mean, honestly, Danielle Jenne LIVES ON MY CAMPUS jsut down the freaking street. I haven't seen her all year and texted her only once.

And you know what Steph said to that-- "This is me of whom we speak! We will find time and make it work." That's like... one of the... best things anyone's ever said to me. Like, I'm sure Kelsey has said something like that to me before, but I never could really expect her to follow through on it. When Steph said it, I knew it was true. Our history has backed it up. I mean, this break, even though she had finals and work and was getting sick, she made so much time to see me. If I wasn't home, I was at Steph's.

And I didn't have this intention when writing tonight. I really had no direction except knowing I wanted to write, to share something with this small world that reads my words. But I'm glad I did.

Steph, you're my best friend. And you have no idea how happy I am about that. I'm excited to see where life takes us, knowing that you'll be there to share it with me.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Can You See It Now?

These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down / It's a revolution / Throw your hands up 'cause we never gave in / We'll sing Hallelujah!


It's what I am doing this year. I'm off to a very good start. Tonight for sure is going to mess it up, but it's a special occassion and I'll get myself back on track because I understand it's only a special occassion.

I've been going to bed early- in bed by 10 o'clock to write in my Jesus Journal and read a chapter in a book, then falling asleep by 11. I try and wake-up around 730 so I can get ready before watching Say Yes to the Dress and then depending on whether or not I have class at 930, I am going to the gym or finding some other time to go because I am training for a 5k. (If you want to read about my progress for the 5k, check out my other blog "Journey To The 5k.")

I'm feeling really good. I really like this. I wish I could be doing more homework so I can really get a feel for how I do once I have more obligations to school, but my books haven't come in yet. Hopefully they'll be here before Friday so I can catch up over the weekend.

I'm really excited for this year. I feel this is something I can do. I feel these are changes I can keep. And even in going to bed early, I'm still finding enough time for myself, although that will probably decrease over the quarter as I start to get more homework and have to study for tests and whatnot. But I'm praying God will provide me with time still.

I did really well financially last quarter although I was really worried towards the end there, but I have a lot of money saved for my trip this summer to Boston and New York and I have a lot of money this quarter. I am hoping I'll be really good about spending and not spend it all. I'm going to try and live off of 40$ a week, especially since I can get a lot of me food through dining dollars and I'm not even counting that. If I live off 40$ a week, besides maybe a few very special activites, it means I'll only be spending roughly 500$ a quarter which is about a third of the money I get. So, that is another one of my goals.

I really enjoy writing in my Jesus Journal. I usually take the first paragraph just to thank God for everything and it really makes me happy, thinking about all the good things he's done for me that day. It puts a smile on my face no matter how the day really went. I also made four resolutions with Him this year, which are pretty much my resolutions for the year. I want to do things for Him. Like this running thing, instead of saying I want to get in shape, making it a very "me" resolution and not really giving me any sort of goal, I am trying to treat the body He blessed me with better. I want to love the body He gave me, not hate it or mistreat it. I want to learn to appreciate all it does for me and how it truly is a beautiful thing, no matter what anyone says the standard of beauty is. My others are like that too. I want to spend more time with Him and I'm starting that by wiritng every night. Soon I am hoping to include more Bible time, since I'm really bad at that, or random moments of worship or prayer or just more conciousness of Him as I go through my day. I want to spend Sundays as a day of rest. So I cannot do homework or anything like that, but I can enjoy time with Him and time in my city or just with friends or in books or in writing. But nothing stressful. And also, go to church Sundays. And my other one is just to use the things He has blessed me with wiser--time, money, school, family, friends, words, gifts, possessions, city, classes. Pretty much these four resolutions are completely life changing for me and I want to do my best with them.

I think I might write them down each day or go back to them each day and see how I've messed up or done well to keep them in my mind. I mean, I feel like I've already forgotten them. If you could just pray for me on these four things and for my family's financial situation, I would really appreciate it.

Good luck with all your New Resolutions. Leave me comments about what they are so I can pray for you too or encourage you throughout the year!