Then we finally peeled our eyes away from all of the DIY beauty and tried to fall asleep.
But we ended up talking-- about boys.
Now boys are stupid, that's my official opinion on the matter, and that was before all of this current crush fallout. I think it'll take me awhile still to find them so necessary to life that I need to spend a majority of my time with one. But we were talking about past boys and future boys and the current lack of present boys, when I said....
ME: "Boys are bullshit."
JEZLI: "Boys are bullshit."
ME: "I 'on't even curr about them."
(Yeah, I said it like that. What's it to ya?)
JEZLI: "Neither do I!"
ME: "Jezli... I care so much."
JEZLI: "Me too."
And then we fell off to sleep.
Actually we talked a little longer, but I like this ending better.
It's true. I care. I can say all I want that I don't, but I do. I can honestly say that, right now though, I am not looking for a boyfriend and don't really want one. I have so much fun with these ladies I live with. I have the whole rest of my life to live with a boy, but I only have this year(s) to spend with them. Sorry, future boyfriend, you're going to have to wait awhile.
And, I think of this and I remember what I'm waiting for.
Because this guy's going to be perfect.